Last Night

Last night was so amazing. The Spirit sucked, but spending time with him was amazing.

I never wanted it to end.

'Nuff said.

<3

~J*~

The Day Of

I have a date tonight.

=D

I'm so damn excited. I really like him. He really likes me. We actually go to the same school XD I can't freaking wait. Gahh. We're going to see either The Spirit or Yes Man. Not sure which; they both start at roughly the same time. I can't wait to see him. Haven't seen him since Tuesday. And I know that sounds lame.

"Joey, that's not that long ago. Take a pill de chill."

I know, but it feels like forever. I promise, I'll try to stop being lame.

Anyway...

I went shopping yesterday. Yay. Sadly, I was alone. Boo. Yeah, my dad and Kim wanted to go, and I went with, but all of my friends were busy and such, so yeah... I got a really cute coat from Old Navy. It's like, black courdoroy (wow I totally butchered that word), and the inside of the hood is black and red checkered, and the zipper is underneath the buttons and yeah :3 Really cute. And then I got two t-shirts at Hot Topic. One is All Time Low (goddamn, I love them!) and it has a pink octopus on it :3 I named him Alex. After the lead singer. Because I'm just that amazing.

(Pshtyeahrightokaykthnx)

But I came downstairs with the shirt on this morning and the conversation with Kim went as follows:

Kim: "Whoa... that's pink on your shirt."

Me: "Hm."

Kim: "You gonna wear that tonight?"

Me: "Mhm."

Kim: "Well... people talk."

Me: "That's nice. People can talk all they want."

---

Clearly, I'm not out to her or my dad yet.

Yet.

Anyway, I also got a Paramore shirt. It's black, and the front has orange fading to yellow, fading to blue, and it says "We Are Paramore." Ish cute. :)

So yeah.

Okay, wellllll, I think I'm done rambling about now. I'm leaving in an hour :D

EXCITED!!!

Hehe.

Okay.

Hugs&kisses

~J*~

Merry Christmas... I Think?

So it definitely feels NOTHING like Christmas. It's really sunny and green outside. Gr. And there's like, nothing Christmasy in my house. I'm going to my dad's in about forty-five minutes, so maybe it'll be a little more Christmas spirit-y there.

But yeah.

Just wanted to say Merry Christmas and happy holidays to everyone.

Because I don't discriminate in good holiday wishes :D

Haha.

Currently listening to: The Dresden Dolls. Maybe THAT'S why I'm not in the most Christmasy mood XD

~J*~

Do Me A Favor?

I made a video about this too, on my vlog, and now apparently it's a problem on Blogger. You see, I went to middle school with a few kids - one stands out in particular, by the name of Arjun Chaabra (pedophiles, feel free) - who pretty much made my life a living hell. And now they're trying again over the internet.

I know it seems like I'm "letting them get to me" by giving them this "attention," but I'm going to make this clear one more time.

You are pathetic. Just so you know. "joeytruth" - a very LAME parody on my last name - i know who you are. You must think I'm stupid, because you only have videos on yourselves on YouTube. Granted, you only made the YouTube in the first place to harass me. Seriously. Grow up and get some fucking balls. You're going to sit there and give me shit because, what, you have nothing better to do with your own life? Wow. I'll say it again: You Are Pathetic.

So, faithful readers, feel free to spam them. They left a comment on my last post.

((Thanks, Nikki, I know you helped :3))

Anyway...

Sososo yesterday, we only had like, four classes. It was the day before break, and at lunch, my lesbian Rosie came in the stairway saying they were letting us out early because of a water main break. So we went to fifth period and they let us go and yeahhh :3

I gotz a few extra minutes wiff mah boyyy XD

Anywayyyy.

So yeah. Break's starting off kinda slow. Nothing special for Christmas Eve. I'm going to my dad's tomorrow for Christmas, then on Friday I'm going out with Jayson to chill at the mall. Hopefully. He better be able to get a ride -_-

I was supposed to go to church tonight with my mom and her friend - who happens to be the mother of one of my really good friends - but my mom was like "i dont' feel like going," and I almost went just to chill with Joey. Not me. Other Joey. My friend Joey. XD

Anyway.

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Okay, I think I'm done.

I'm gonna go figure out why I can't get on AIM and MSN and the such.

Tee tee why ell.

<3

~J*~

Well shit.

As some of my readers know by now - the ones who know me, or overhear me in class - my mom was laid off a month or so ago. She has had no luck finding a job - not even a temp. I was freaking out before, but now I'm terrified, as is she.

If she cannot find a job my mid-January, I would have to move in with my father, and she would move in with her sister in Pittsburgh. I would stay with my dad to finish out the school year, then, if it's up to me - which it might not be, because he can be a tool bag - I'll move to Pittsburgh over the summer and finish out my senior year at a local high school that one of my cousins graduated from that's very similar to the one I'm going to now.

Leaving terrifies me. And my mom is mad, because I'm staying with my dad, and she thought I'd go with her. She's furious, and I hurt her really bad by telling her I wanted to go with my dad, if just for a couple months. For the longest time, I have said over and over that:
a) I do not want to leave these dogs.
b) I do not want to live with Kim.
c) My dad doesn't understand me.

I've promised my mom time and time again that I wouldn't live with my dad if I had to. And now it's an actual, very real possibility, and I'm terrified. I don't want to go to Pittsburgh and start over somewhere new. I may hate this state, but I've grown up here. I don't know anything else. And, yes, part of it is my friends. Next year, Sam will have graduated, as will my other senior friends, but what about everyone else? And Abby? She'll be living with her grandmother, close-ish to where my dad lives (less than 10 minute drive), and I'll miss her like hell. And, of course, other people.

If I am forced to stay with my dad for however many months, the plus side is I will probably get my license. Who knows, maybe even a car.

(As Ellen Paige said in Juno: WHOA, DREAM BIG!)

If this happens, transportation will be a million times easier. I'll be able to see the three people I'm closest to easier, even 250 miles away. I'd visit every opportunity I got.

But I'm so scared.

Leaving has never been so real before, and I'm terrified.

~J*~

So I Haven't Posted Since Saturday... And It's THURSDAY?!?!?

So.

So.

Yeah.

I'm sorry.

I love you!! I promise. I've just been too caught up in things to really focus on... well, much of anything. School included. Yet somehow, I magically have an A in precalculus.

SAY WHAT?!?!?

Yeah really.

And we got our PSAT results. 1710 for yours truly, out of 2200, I believe. I know someone that got 2130. I'm fucking JEALOUS. I wish I was that smart ><

I have two C's right now. Biology in psychology. The 'ologys don't like me. And if that wasn't bad grammar, I have no clue what is. =D

Life is really good right now, and I'm exceedingly happy. I just have to focus more on school rather than... erm... social issues.

But I can't help that my thoughts get carried away! ...Can I?

I've been texting so much over the past four days. My mom's gonna freak. Like, it's unlimited, but I have "better things to do with my time."

((Not really, but let her live in her own little fantasy world :D))

Everyone is finding someone, including me, and that makes me really happy. It's like, perfect timing - right around Christmas. The present everyone wants - someone to hold and be with.

Nothing could be better.

<3

~J*~

Kara Is My Lover. Her Parties Are Orgy-Tastic

So yeah =D Pretty much started off everyone was in the living room watching this movie called "How High," which was the dumbest thing I've ever seen. Homg total straight boy movie. And then people started showing up. And my friend Jayson was like "I'm not able to come" and then he showed up and I was like :DD

XD

So yeah. There were lotsa people. We all just kinda chilled and talked and molseted (mainly Kara) and yuppp.

Then we went on the trampoline out back and this guy and this girl were swallowing each others' tongues and they disappeared for like, half an hour. So yeah. Sketch? I think so.

So yeah. We chilled out there. Literally. Chilled. Fcken freezingggg. Then we went back in for more molestation and yeahh just hung out and talked.

Wewt :D

Not as much dancing this time though. That kinda saddens me. But meh.

^_^

~J*~

Bipolar Friday

How was my day?

Bipolar.

I started this morning off with a ride to school from mom, at which time we got in a huge fight because she was being slightly stereotypical and she started yelling and cursing at me when I was trying to be rational. She made a comment that I dont' feel like repeating, simply because I would have to type out the longevity of the argument, but basically it felt as if she were hitting below the belt in regards to my sexuality. Not that she's a homophobe or anything, because she's not. But... yeah.

So needless to say, my morning was fucked six ways to Sunday. I was quite and emo-rrific with my friends and didn't really talk to anyone. Jayson made me smile a little bit, but... blargh. Then all through second period (today was a block day, so an hour and a half of precalculus... oh boy...) I was blahish. I didn't understand any of the shit we were doing, and eventually I was just like "fuck this, I give up." Then in fourth period psychology, things started to look up a bit. For no reason, I just started feeling giggly.

Then Jayson proceeded to rape me at lunch, and the rest of the day was pretty much a breeze.

By rape, I mean he found a particular ticklish spot and wouldn't let up. So yeah. I basically beat the shit out of him, but he didn't really notice. Yikes.

In sixth period video production, we had a sub, so we just watched a video on editing.

Then in theater, we talked a little about the performance last Saturday with the Text Alive coordinators, and yeahhh..

OH.

This girl, Nicole, said something uberfunny in psychology.


"Are you sexually active?"
"No, I just lay there."

It made me laugh. A lot. So I thought I'd share that with you.

I'm looking forward to Kara's party tomorrow night =] Excitement abounds!!

~J*~

Remember How I Said I Can't Haz Cookie Dough?

I had cookie dough :3

They were in these little pre-shaped cookies.

HOMG SO GOOD!! They were like, the cookie dough from the ice cream.

Nomnom yummerific.

Yeah that was last night. Just thought I'd share that with you.

But now I have Swiss Miss hot chocolate :3

Yummy.

So guess what?

My biology teacher is a sadist. No lie. He likes seeing his students put their hands in ice water for five minutes straight, just to break toothpicks to simulate enzyme action.

Huhhh??

Yeah, I don't even really get it myself. We were simulating enzyme action on like, substrates and such, and breaking toothpicks as fast as possible, and for the last part of the lab, one person per group had to put their hands in ice water for five minutes. Holy shit, it hurt. Like, they were in there FOR FIVE MINUTES. And then I broke like, three toothpicks at a time. (There were ten). If I kept my hands still in the water, they felt warm, but if I moved them HOMG OUCHIESSSS.

But if Mr. Turner is a sadist, then I suppose I'm a masochist for volunteering for our group. This girl, Mariah, wanted to do it, but I said I would, she was all "okay." And then she tried and was like "OMG I'M SO GLAD I DIDN'T DO THIS!"

Soyeah.

I can haz really red hands?

Oh, question.

Does anyone know how long it takes to receive a letter in Illinois, sent from Maryland? Because I sent my BFFL, Nikki, a letter for Christmas on the sixth, and she still hasn't gotten it. Which is greatly depressing me, because there was a surprise inside. You know, like my Reese's Puffs yesterday morning?

Yeah, I had a little rolly giraffe from Madagascar 2 in my cereal. It's my new favorite thing.

Yeah.

OH.

Jayson gave me a present yesterday. A lubricated, ultra-ribbed Trojan condom. Yeah. I was walking home with Abby today and I blew it up on the side of the road. It looked so wrong. I got funny looks. And a car honked at me. Then I let it deflate and it landed in the street.

I wonder what people will think when they see it?

It was gross. It was like, slimy. Stupid lubricant.

God, I hate that word.

~J*~

I Can Haz Sweet Tooth? AND POT BREATH!?

So we went to the store yesterday and didn't get any good sweets. We have some chocolate chip cookie dough that I really want to eat without cooking (I'z a cookie dough addict) but nooo, I'm not allowed.

**le sigh**

Sweet tooth like shit.

So yesterday, my mommeh picked me up from school and we were in the car and she was all "I smell pot." How does she know what pot smells like? No idea. Probably had a couple stoner days.

Well, we figure it's the bus in front of us, some kid lighting up in back. The bus turns, and she still smells it. We get in the store, I'm talking, she leans in, sniffs, and goes "Your breath smells like pot."

WTF.

Now my mother thinks I'm a pothead. As if she doesn't have enough reason to NOT trust me ><

In other news....

Guesswhatguesswhatguesswhat?

I made a new vlog.

Now I just have to edit and upload it.

I've been totally neglecting it because blogging is sort of infinitely cooler 'cause I can express my writing easier, and yeahh. So yeah :3

Okay.

I'm done rambling for now.

<3

~J*~

That Was INFINITELY Easier Than I Anticipated

Sosososososo.

I know you're all dying to hear how my performance went this morning at the Shakespeare Theater.

Two words.

Fab.

Ulous.

I mean, this morning when I woke up at 6:00, I wasn't even nervous. Of course, we got backstage, and I was terrified. Then they did the prologue, and scene one, and OH MY GOSH IT'S OUR TURN!!!

But me and my scene partner, JJ, were cued, and I didn't even CARE that I was standing in an angel costume in front of however many people. I was like WHA-BAM, character, projection, voi la.

I'm kinda mad I didn't get a bigger part now ><

But yeahhh...

Some of the other schools sucked hardcore. Some kids forgot their lines and I couldn't hear them - and I was in the SECOND ROW.

Our school had to be in the top three. At least.

The scene before us - my friend Jake was in it - was INCREDIBLE. But since we were scene two - they were scene one - we didn't get to see it, because we were already backstage. So yeah :(

BUT MY MOM BOUGHT THE DVD.

Hehehe.

Then two scenes after us, the balcony scene, was OMGSOGOOD. They did this really clever concept that was like... clever.

See, they had like, these old people in a retirement home and the old man had a really big remote and in front of them the two people playing Romeo and Juliet were performing, and every time the old man changed the channel, different people came on in different costumes and continued with the dialogue.

SO WITTY.

Loved it.

Best scene.




But now I have some sad news.

I did not get to take any pictures. =[
I know this is very saddening, and I'm sorry, because I SERIOUSLY meant to. But I totally forgot. *le sigh*

Oh well.

Maybe someone took a picture and will put it on Facebook?

Or something?


~J*~

I Must Remember to Bring my Camera to School Tomorrow!

I'm going to try my hardest to bring my camera to school tomorrow to get people to take pictures of my costume for theater to post on Facebook, and on here.

I know people are dying to see it.

**cough**Tia**cough**

**sneeze**Sam**sneeze**

So I've been hoping Ms Roots would cut my "scene partner" from the scene, because he misses cues and doesn't stay in the scene. But, quite frankly, it works a bit better with him, because there are certain bits we do.

I wish I could have it recorded to post on YouTube, but I dont' think that will be possible. Which sucks. But blahh. I guess the fewer people that see it, the better.

I think I'll put my camera in my bag tonight so I don't forget it tomorrow.

Anygay...

Sorry I've been inactive for the past two days. Internet issues out the wazoo. So yeah. Inactivity might be frequentish.

Okay.

I think I'm going to try to write now maybe possibly. I've been writing quite a bit lately...ish.
=D

~J*~

Stressing Out Much?

I'm so scared.

Clever Girl Tia, your reassurances mean a lot, but stage fright can't be helped.

The performance at the Shakespeare Theatre is on Saturday at about 9:AM. I have to be there at 8:15. No one in my theater class is really taking it seriously, Ms. Roots is pissed, and I think we're kind of majorly F U C K E D.

I can't tell you how damn nervous I am. I mean, I know it's not many lines, but still, I have to stand up in front of a lot of people and act in a fucking ANGEL COSTUME. Gah. I thought a white dress shirt, light jeans, and a halo would be enough, but NO. White dress shirt, white pants, and WINGS. And we have to arrive at the Theatre IN COSTUME.

So I'm going to be walking around the nation's capitol looking like a fucking ANGEL.

I'm so not putting the wings on until I get in the damn place.

I don't know why I'm dreading this week so much. I just so totally want Saturday to be over. Like, really bad.

Gah.

Why did I do this to myself?

Gah.

Just... gah.

~J*~