2009? Really?

This holiday season feels nothing like the holidays. Christmas didn't feel like Christmas, and it seriously does not feel like 2009.

Resolutions?

To be blunt: Fuck that =D

My attitude towards New Year's Resolutions has been greatly influenced by my mother (seeing as I've lived solely with her for thirteen years, with visitation to my dad's every other weekend). Her attitude - and now mine - is this:

"Why wait until a new year to make a resolution for yourself? As soon as you're not happy with something, and you want to change it, work on it right away. Don't wait for a new year to change it."

So yeah.

My question is: why wait? I mean, why don't just work on what makes you unhappy as soon as you realize the problem? A great deal of resolutions have to do with losing weight. Um, hello, it doesn't hurt to start a new diet and exercise regime right away. I did in the middle of like, October? I don't know if I've lost any weight - it's kind of fallen through, courtesy of the holidays - but it still doesn't hurt to try to get a little healthier right away.

Another popular resolution has to deal with frugal-ness. People want to watch their money this year, especially with the economy as bad as it is. But why wait until the new year? Why not just start saving and cutting back right away? Don't say "That'll be my New Year's Resolution, to spend less money." Start right away!

So yeah. I've never understood the resolutions, and I don't think I ever will.

Moving on to more trivial matters........

Who watched Carson Daily's New Years Eve thinger last night? Show of hands?

I watched it for one thing and one thing only.

Actually, one person.

Three guesses who.

I'll give you a hint: she's the breakout artist of 2008 and likes KISSING GIRLS and hates indescisive boyfriends that seem HOT AND COLD.

C'mon.

I know you know who I mean.

KATY FUCKING PERRY.

Duh.

Yeah. She was amazing. Definitley not the outrageous outfit I was hoping for, but she still looked fabulous.

"But, Joey, her voice sounds horrible live!"

Okay, first of all: no, it's not HORRIBLE. Second of all: she is not the best singer. But at least she's not lip-synching to all of her songs. She's proud of the voice she has, and she doesn't hide behind electronic enhancement in her shows to try to make her voice sound better, like Britney - even though I love her, too.

Her voice is just so unique, her music so catchy, and she puts on a fucking FABULOUS show. I'd do anything to see her in concert - nay, I'd do anything to MEET her.

Ilovehersomuch,morethanagayboyshouldloveafemale.

Okay.

Wellllllll, I'm going to go binge on Katy Perry and be bored all of New Year's Day.

And maybe have some egg nog....

~J*~

Last Night

Last night was so amazing. The Spirit sucked, but spending time with him was amazing.

I never wanted it to end.

'Nuff said.

<3

~J*~

The Day Of

I have a date tonight.

=D

I'm so damn excited. I really like him. He really likes me. We actually go to the same school XD I can't freaking wait. Gahh. We're going to see either The Spirit or Yes Man. Not sure which; they both start at roughly the same time. I can't wait to see him. Haven't seen him since Tuesday. And I know that sounds lame.

"Joey, that's not that long ago. Take a pill de chill."

I know, but it feels like forever. I promise, I'll try to stop being lame.

Anyway...

I went shopping yesterday. Yay. Sadly, I was alone. Boo. Yeah, my dad and Kim wanted to go, and I went with, but all of my friends were busy and such, so yeah... I got a really cute coat from Old Navy. It's like, black courdoroy (wow I totally butchered that word), and the inside of the hood is black and red checkered, and the zipper is underneath the buttons and yeah :3 Really cute. And then I got two t-shirts at Hot Topic. One is All Time Low (goddamn, I love them!) and it has a pink octopus on it :3 I named him Alex. After the lead singer. Because I'm just that amazing.

(Pshtyeahrightokaykthnx)

But I came downstairs with the shirt on this morning and the conversation with Kim went as follows:

Kim: "Whoa... that's pink on your shirt."

Me: "Hm."

Kim: "You gonna wear that tonight?"

Me: "Mhm."

Kim: "Well... people talk."

Me: "That's nice. People can talk all they want."

---

Clearly, I'm not out to her or my dad yet.

Yet.

Anyway, I also got a Paramore shirt. It's black, and the front has orange fading to yellow, fading to blue, and it says "We Are Paramore." Ish cute. :)

So yeah.

Okay, wellllll, I think I'm done rambling about now. I'm leaving in an hour :D

EXCITED!!!

Hehe.

Okay.

Hugs&kisses

~J*~

Merry Christmas... I Think?

So it definitely feels NOTHING like Christmas. It's really sunny and green outside. Gr. And there's like, nothing Christmasy in my house. I'm going to my dad's in about forty-five minutes, so maybe it'll be a little more Christmas spirit-y there.

But yeah.

Just wanted to say Merry Christmas and happy holidays to everyone.

Because I don't discriminate in good holiday wishes :D

Haha.

Currently listening to: The Dresden Dolls. Maybe THAT'S why I'm not in the most Christmasy mood XD

~J*~

Do Me A Favor?

I made a video about this too, on my vlog, and now apparently it's a problem on Blogger. You see, I went to middle school with a few kids - one stands out in particular, by the name of Arjun Chaabra (pedophiles, feel free) - who pretty much made my life a living hell. And now they're trying again over the internet.

I know it seems like I'm "letting them get to me" by giving them this "attention," but I'm going to make this clear one more time.

You are pathetic. Just so you know. "joeytruth" - a very LAME parody on my last name - i know who you are. You must think I'm stupid, because you only have videos on yourselves on YouTube. Granted, you only made the YouTube in the first place to harass me. Seriously. Grow up and get some fucking balls. You're going to sit there and give me shit because, what, you have nothing better to do with your own life? Wow. I'll say it again: You Are Pathetic.

So, faithful readers, feel free to spam them. They left a comment on my last post.

((Thanks, Nikki, I know you helped :3))

Anyway...

Sososo yesterday, we only had like, four classes. It was the day before break, and at lunch, my lesbian Rosie came in the stairway saying they were letting us out early because of a water main break. So we went to fifth period and they let us go and yeahhh :3

I gotz a few extra minutes wiff mah boyyy XD

Anywayyyy.

So yeah. Break's starting off kinda slow. Nothing special for Christmas Eve. I'm going to my dad's tomorrow for Christmas, then on Friday I'm going out with Jayson to chill at the mall. Hopefully. He better be able to get a ride -_-

I was supposed to go to church tonight with my mom and her friend - who happens to be the mother of one of my really good friends - but my mom was like "i dont' feel like going," and I almost went just to chill with Joey. Not me. Other Joey. My friend Joey. XD

Anyway.

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Okay, I think I'm done.

I'm gonna go figure out why I can't get on AIM and MSN and the such.

Tee tee why ell.

<3

~J*~

Well shit.

As some of my readers know by now - the ones who know me, or overhear me in class - my mom was laid off a month or so ago. She has had no luck finding a job - not even a temp. I was freaking out before, but now I'm terrified, as is she.

If she cannot find a job my mid-January, I would have to move in with my father, and she would move in with her sister in Pittsburgh. I would stay with my dad to finish out the school year, then, if it's up to me - which it might not be, because he can be a tool bag - I'll move to Pittsburgh over the summer and finish out my senior year at a local high school that one of my cousins graduated from that's very similar to the one I'm going to now.

Leaving terrifies me. And my mom is mad, because I'm staying with my dad, and she thought I'd go with her. She's furious, and I hurt her really bad by telling her I wanted to go with my dad, if just for a couple months. For the longest time, I have said over and over that:
a) I do not want to leave these dogs.
b) I do not want to live with Kim.
c) My dad doesn't understand me.

I've promised my mom time and time again that I wouldn't live with my dad if I had to. And now it's an actual, very real possibility, and I'm terrified. I don't want to go to Pittsburgh and start over somewhere new. I may hate this state, but I've grown up here. I don't know anything else. And, yes, part of it is my friends. Next year, Sam will have graduated, as will my other senior friends, but what about everyone else? And Abby? She'll be living with her grandmother, close-ish to where my dad lives (less than 10 minute drive), and I'll miss her like hell. And, of course, other people.

If I am forced to stay with my dad for however many months, the plus side is I will probably get my license. Who knows, maybe even a car.

(As Ellen Paige said in Juno: WHOA, DREAM BIG!)

If this happens, transportation will be a million times easier. I'll be able to see the three people I'm closest to easier, even 250 miles away. I'd visit every opportunity I got.

But I'm so scared.

Leaving has never been so real before, and I'm terrified.

~J*~

So I Haven't Posted Since Saturday... And It's THURSDAY?!?!?

So.

So.

Yeah.

I'm sorry.

I love you!! I promise. I've just been too caught up in things to really focus on... well, much of anything. School included. Yet somehow, I magically have an A in precalculus.

SAY WHAT?!?!?

Yeah really.

And we got our PSAT results. 1710 for yours truly, out of 2200, I believe. I know someone that got 2130. I'm fucking JEALOUS. I wish I was that smart ><

I have two C's right now. Biology in psychology. The 'ologys don't like me. And if that wasn't bad grammar, I have no clue what is. =D

Life is really good right now, and I'm exceedingly happy. I just have to focus more on school rather than... erm... social issues.

But I can't help that my thoughts get carried away! ...Can I?

I've been texting so much over the past four days. My mom's gonna freak. Like, it's unlimited, but I have "better things to do with my time."

((Not really, but let her live in her own little fantasy world :D))

Everyone is finding someone, including me, and that makes me really happy. It's like, perfect timing - right around Christmas. The present everyone wants - someone to hold and be with.

Nothing could be better.

<3

~J*~