I Need To Get IN SHAPE.

Okay, so I'm not like. Big. But I'm a little bit overweight. And I have pudge. And Boyfriend says he likes the pudge. So I'm kinda like... oh, I don't care. But turns out, I might be lifeguarding this summer. So um... I'm not gonna sit around a poll with my stomach hanging over the waistband of my swimtrunks, kthnx. And I know lifeguards wear shirts. But uhm... Then I'll have a farmer's tan. And that'll just be ewey.

Except for the part where, to be qualified, you have to swim twelve (yes, twelve) laps straight, and then get a ten pound weight from the bottom of the deep end, up to the surface, and swim it across the pool. Blow my life. I think I'm screwed.

Thing is, I think it'd be kinda fun. And it pays really well. So like. It couldn't hurt. I'm going to try. I'm just really nervous. Like, I don't want to start working til the summer. 'Cause my grades were good for third quarter, but now they're kinda... slippingish.



Oh. Okay.

So the Twin (aka BFF main girl Abby - told you I'd get a new name soon) and I got into a fightish thing today. She wanted me to go to this carnival thing with her and her madre and her brother, and my mom was like "No," and the Twin got all pissed off and going on this whole "Your mom doesn't trust me or my parents" thing and it's like... No. Sometimes, mother dearest just says no. Chill. And she's all mad at me because, basically, I have friends and she doesn't.

My life cannot revolve around her and her schedule. I'm sorry that I have other friends that I like to hang out with, too, and... yeah. So gah. I mean, we're "okay" for now. But like... yeah. I dunno.

Hm. A hot shower sounds quite appealing.

Adios.

~J*~

Spring Break... Not So Break-alicious.

This did not feel like spring break. It felt like a very long, boring weekend. From Friday evening to Monday morning, I was in Manhattan. This was slightly entertaining. It was fun being in a new city that I've only been to once - years ago, so I don't even remember - and it was just... fun. I dunno. I liked it. It woulda been more fun with friends, though.

I saw none of my friends over break. Except BFF main girl Abby (once again, props to Clever Girl Tia for the witty nickname; I'll change it up eventually, I swear). I went outside with her for an hour and a half the other day and chilled. But I didn't get to see the Penguin, or Boyfriend, who was in Williamsburg all break... So wasn't having much fun, either.

It's 11:05 PM, and I have an 88 question study guide to finish. I'm on question... 40. I did a 96 question study guide yesterday and the day before. Stupid psychology -.-

Anyway.

Yeah. I'm ready to go back to school, but only 'cause I miss everyone. And yeah. So I've spent all my break doing... nothing? I might be seeing my friend Joey tomorrow, as well as Abby. But Iono.

This wasn't the Best Break Ever. And I only have one more high school spring break. So that one better be DAMN enjoyable.

So since I was without Facebook for a while, I thought I'd have like, a million notifications and such. But when I got on the other day, after my foray in NYC, I only had 18 notifications. I'm unloved :(

Hah. As if. :)

Anyway.

I've found another series to break me away from my Anita Blake obsession. Except for the part where I'm still totally obsessed. But it's that series that the HBO hit show (that I have yet to see more than ONE episode of -.-) True Blood. I saw the first episode, and I REALLY liked it. I'm reading the first book in this "Sookie Stackhouse series," (who names their child Sookie? Why would you do that? Do you WANT them to be bullybait?) and I like it and all. I'm just not a huge fan of Charlaine Harris' style. It's cute, though :)

I got the 14th Anita Blake, though. And I've read one chapter. And I'm like... :OOO. And I really want to read it. But I have to finish Sookie Stackhouse. Then I'm trying to finish Stephen King's "Insomnia." So I'm like... GAHHHH. "Insomnia" is good and all, very interesting, but it's NOT ANITA BLAKE.

Okay. I sound like a HUGE EFFING NERD RIGHT NOW with my book-talk. Um. Sorry? ><

Anyway.

Okay. I REALLY need to finish this study guide. Well, not finish... but work on? 'Cause this one's not due till Wednesday.

OKAY.

FOR SEALS.

I'M GOING NOW.

OKAY?

Kay.

OH WAIT.

No I'm not.

I'm upset about something :(

My mommy limited my texting. Yeah. I "text too much." And I do. One month it was... upwards of 8000 [blush]. But I cut back by like, 3000! So last month it was around 5000!! :D

But alas, now I only get 1500 a month. So goodbye, Twitter :( GAH.

It's so upsetting.

OKAY ANYWAY GAH STUDYGUIDE ILOVEYOUALL BYE.

~J*~

Matza Crackers and Peanut Butter - And I'm Not Even Jewish!!

Someone explain to me why people think matza is tasty. Because I do not see (erm... taste?) it. At all. It tastes like cardboard. And it's only good with peanut butter.

(As everyone knows, cardboard is very tasty with peanut butter. Peanut butter is one of the three things that makes a whole lot of foods taste better :D Including parmesan cheese and garlic salt.)

So I had an orthodontist appointment today. And I was informed that I no longer have to come in anymore. I simply have to wear my retainer one night a week - although, the doctor told me I only had to wear it when I thought it was necessary. I'm MATURE ENOUGH TO MAKE DECISIONS ABOUT MY TEETH!! :D

But, alas, another chapter in my life comes to an end... I've been seeing said orthodontist office since I was a wee lad (11 years old, to be precise - I got my braces on around November of 2003). It's the end of an ERA!!!

Thank. Fudging. GOD.

A.n.y.w.a.y.

I am very excited. I have commenced work on a new story, and I am utterly enthralled with my ability to keep it from drifting into supernaturalness!! But I find the story quite lovely, so far, even though it makes virtually no sense.

Hmph.

I'll figure it all out :)

It sucks, though, because I've reallllly wanted to write lately, and I've had a writer's block. I mean, it'll go away for like, a day, then it'll come back, and I'll be just as D:< grrr as ever.

So grrr to you, writer's block.

~J*~

My Chin Is Itchy :(

Hai.

Currently: Listening to Dresden Dolls on YouTube. Binge much?

So mommy found out about Facebook. And blogs. And she's all "I'm impressed with your writing" and I'm all :D *flattered*

Even though it's... my mother?

**awkward turtle**
^^^
You wouldn't understand



Anyway.

Hai.

So I've been having mood swings lately. If I was a girl, I'd say I was PMSing. But I'm not. So I'm not. But like. Yeah. Yesterday morning til this morning before I got to school, I was pissed at the world. Then I got to school and everything was super-spectacular. Um? B.I.P.O.L.A.R. Kthnx.

I'm trying to learn how to play piano :O Isn't it E'CITING?!?!? Of course, I'm failing epically, but practice Practice PRACTICE.

Hehe.

I need to get this CD so I don't have to listen to it on YouTube. But the stupid freaking wifi isn't freaking working, and I only have Limewire on the laptop, and TALIGHASG eff Verizon. They SUCK.

-_-

Anyway.

Okay.

Done rambling for today, methinks.

Tee tee why ell.

~J*~

The School Paper Loves Joey =]

Hey. Everyone that reads this that goes to my school. You know who you are. I'm not about to broadcast what school I go to on the interwebz. There are such things as pedophiles, you know. They're gross.

So yeah. You people that go to my escuela. Turn to the "Beat Attitude" section. Right now. I think that's right. Haha. It's the first article. About blogging.

I'M MENTIONED!!!

=D

It's so exciting. First my blog is "In," and now I've been interviewed for the school paper - and my words were RECOUNTEDDDD!!!

Woot fersure.

So yeah. Once again, I'm alone on a Friday night, while Penguin, Boyfriend, and his two besties chill at his house. I am SO FRIGGING JEALOUS. Ugh. ALhasglsajg. I miss them all. 'Specially... well, guess who :P

Anyway.

So I'm stuck at my dad's house, on the computer. No one's on AIM or MSN. Or Facebook. Fudge my life.

Oooh.

Fudge sounds tasty.

And I really want this tortilla chicken soup from Panera. Omnomonomnomnom...

OH!

So I have exciting news. I know 99.9% of you don't like, legit care. But I think my mom is finally starting to get it. It might've helped that I told her if I had somewhere else to live, I would. But there were several reasons I didn't want to move in with dad:
1) I'd miss my dogs.
2) He's not as chil about Boyfriend as mom is.
3) It's a big house - that means more chores.

But I think telling her that opened her eyes. Because I'm sick of her saying that I care more about my friends than her. First of all, my friends didn't give birth to me. So yeah. Second, she's taking this "you're going to leave me one day" to a whole new level.

I dunno. THere's other stuff. But just... yeah.

So yeah. I think I might be able to have more of a social life. And I think I might actually get to see Boyfriend outside of school. Which would be frigging SPECTACULAR.

My psychology teacher assigned a 97 question study guide on Wednesday, due Monday. Thursday, I got home from school. I watched some TV. Then at 4:00, bored as all hell, I commenced on the study guide. I got 32 questions done by 5:00, at which time I went to Panera and sated my dire need for a frontega chicken panini - choosing to ignore my need for the chicken tortilla soup, forgetting you could "pick two." I got home at about 6:15, at which time I re-commenced work on the study guide. At 8:00, I watched a little bit of the previous night's Lost. Truthfully, I'm starting to hate the show. The only reason I still awtch it is to find out what the hell is going on. At 8:30, we had an online test for psychology. 60 questions. Didn't study that much. Thought I didn't know half the stuff.

I got an 88.8%. That's the highest I've EVER gotten on a psychology test.

At 9:00, I resumed the study guide. At 10:30, I talked to the madre for an hour. At 11:30, I study guide-ed some more. At 11:45, I took a shower. at 12:00 am, I finished the last seven questions of the ninety-seven question study guide.

I think the fact that the sexual orientation section was quite interesting (and thanfully the farthest thing from ignorant) helped quite a bit.

Today, I had a unit test in biology. I think I got a B. I had two quizes in AP english. I think I got two A's. Then a quiz in theater. It's theater, so probably 100%. My grades are the best they've been all year. First quarter's GPA was 2.85. Second quarter's GPA was 2.57. Right now, I have 5 B's and 2 A's, which averages out to a 3.28.

I'm doing infinitely better, and it's making me feel infinitely better.

Life isn't too bad right now.

=]

~J*~

Hullo :3

I miss blogging. And I miss writing. I haven't written in a very long time. It's slightly upsetting. But I haven't gotten an opportunity to get on the laptop, upon which my various assortment of works are stored... Even though I was just on... So I could've put the stuff on my jump drive... CRAP.

Anyway.

I just tried to call Verizon - our internet provider - to try to work out the CONSTANT problems we've been having with the WiFi. So, after fifteen minutes of listening to a machine ramble about restarting my modem might help - something I've done for the umpteenth time now - and about how my call is important to them - something that's just utter B.S. - I am told that "all technicians are currenly with other customers. We value your call and -"

Of course I hung up. What do I look like, an idiot?

Don't answer that.

Anyway.

We were reading Huckleberry Finn for AP English. So I've been neglecting my lovely Anita Blake. I've been reading the twelfth book for several months now and I really want to finish it. But it's 730 pages and I've been mega-distracted by socializing.

Hehe.

But yeah.

Grr... Boyfriend's phone broke. So I'm without him until next Thursday. Except at school. Upsetting much?

/whining

But yeah. That's about it. Maybe I'll go write.

...

I'll probably talk to the Penguin.

~J*~

If It's This Hard, It's GOT To Be Worth It

This week has been a total emotional roller coaster. I was so glad to talk things out last night, and I think things my be smooth-going for a while. My mom is still being ridiculous, but... oh well. I can't push her into acceptance. No one can make this any easier. But since it's so hard, that's got to mean something, right? This relationship has had so many bumps because of restrictions, that it's got to be worth it, in the end... right?

I think so. I really do.

But anyway, onto a totally different tangent...

I was reading Tia's blog - as per usual whenever I get on Blogger, which is quite rare nowadays, thanks to previously mentioned restrictions - and there was a post about the upcoming New Moon movie (more specifically, the poster with Robert Pattinson baring his chest and stomach to all the prepubescent girls of the world). Well, I may want to see the rest of the movies as they come out, but..........

I'M SO OVER TWILIGHT.

It's sooooo frigging obnoxious anymore. All this paraphenalia (I totally spelled that wrong) glaring at me from every clothing store and book store... IT'S SO OBNOXIOUS!! Twilight is not worth this much hype. Stephanie Meyer is a good writer an all, but how about you give her some recognition for The Host? You know, her BETTER, DEEPER, MORE MEANINGFUL, AMAZINGLY WELL WRITTEN book? Twilight is well written and all, but it's ridiculously unoriginal and just... obnoxious!! So not worth it....

Okay. Rant over :]

So yeah.

I have a psych study guide due Monday. I reallllly should be doing that. I only have like, 15/57 questions done... It's actually short, for an AP psychology study guide... I kind of was a bitch in that class on Thursday. That was not a good day for me. So I kind of feel bad. And I should probably apologize. But like... Hm. I dunno. I feel bad for being mean to the teacher, though. But for seals, don't try to get me to do anything when I have my head down on my desk. I like, never sleep in class. So he shoulda been like "oh... something's wrong."

No, I'm not expecting too much. Shut up.

<3

~J*~