So Is That It, Then?

Avril Lavigne - Too Much To Ask



It's the first time I've ever felt this lonely,
Wish someone cure this pain
It's funny when you think it's gonna work out
Till you chose weed over me you're so lame

I thought you were cool until the point,
Up until the point you didn't call me when you said you would
Finally figured out you're all the same,
Always coming up with some kind of story

Every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm askin for?

Thought you'd come around when I ignored you,
Sorta thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe I guess you didn't take that warning,
'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself?
You can't see the world through a mirror
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

But every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You stand like a stone,
Alone in your zone
Is that too much that I'm askin for?

Yeah-eya yeah-eya

Can't find where I am, lying here alone in fear,
Afraid of the dark, no one to claim alone again

YEAH-EYA EYA EYA

Can't you see that you lie to yourself?
You can't see the world through a mirror,
It won't be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

Every time I try to make you smile,
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Every time I try to make you laugh,
You can't your too tough
You think you're loveless
It was too much that I asked him for

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Replace "weed" with "nicotine" and you get where I'm at right now.

Today, I was walking with my best friend, who made a promise to me that she would quit smoking. She had been good for about a month. She smoked yesterday, and I didn't mind. Everyone slips up once in a while. But today... she knew full I had expected yesterday to be her last. I asked her today if she was going to put the cigs down. She said no. I told her she made a promise to me and she proceeded with her normal spiel about being a liar and a cheater and a bitch. I walked away and ended up waiting for her to see if she'd really do it. As she walked towards me, she lit up. I told her:
"I guess we know where your loyalties lie - nicotine over friendship."
I don't know when she'll try to apologize, but she always does.
Thing is:
How do I know she'll mean it this time?
How do I know I can trust her anymore?
I never had too much of a problem with trusting her before, even though she's lied to me before.
But this is different....

~J*~